foreverbeme’s blog

Work is taking a toll over me and next week will be a week where my left and right would be just books.Wish I have time to do other things that I havent been doing for years such as picnic, travelling etc. Time has never been enough for me lately walaupun a friend of mine was saying, "kitak nang rileks oh?", as if I am not having other things to do. Is that a sign that I am actually getting a syndrome of laziness and that’s y someone perceived me as so relax compared to others.Or was it I have too much time smsing people?:)

Guess this is a luxury of what we called the profession of teaching. Its not that we dont have much work but we called it as "FLEXIBILITY". I believe that lecturers and teachers, we are flexible in terms of working hours and etc. Our ATA may not be 25-30 hours per week but 18 hours per week of classes were already a mentally stressing situation. I called it as "head damage session". But it is a remarkable feelings and satisfaction when the session turns out well at the end of the semester.

Teaching adults has been such a wonderful experience for me for the past two years. People from all sorts of background, sharing experiences, knowledge, ideas.. its a wonderful feeling and sitting and hearing them was really an amazing experience.Sometimes I wonder how it feels becoming a student again at this age..:)

Dear January,

It’s coming to the end. I felt like it was just yesterday that I celebrate Eid’adha with family and friends. Tensionnya time is really catching up and I am running out of time for so many things this year.

Busy with classes and student’s issues, lessons plan, lectures,exams, meetings, training. Guess, I have to bear with this situation for another few months before I say goodbye and struggle for my LLM. Why is it difficult for me to make decision where should i go for Commercial law? Hmm.. my time is running out.

A lot of my friends were having their birthdays this month. So kawan2, happy birthday and wish you happiness in life and hereafter! Semoga panjang umur dan dimurahkan rezeki. Bila gik tek Enon? Aku tok gik jauh perjalanan..:)

There were some unforgettable events happened this month and I will cherish it to the end. And to all my Muslims friends, Happy New Year 1428 Hijrah!! Semoga Allah S.W.T. memberkati hidup kita dan semoga tahun ini lebih bermakna bagi kita..

Cheers!

p.s: To someone in Selly Oak, thank u so much!

It’s always difficult to say goodbye.Been trying to do that for so many years and finally here I am with a new life and a new heart. Its been ages since the last time I wrote my blog. So many things happened throughout 2006 but somehow I didnt managed to even find a time to actually sit down and write something. Its may be too late for me to say goodbye to 2006 but there are certain things thats still unsettled.

It was a tough year though. I remembered early of the year I was way too busy with meetings, tenders, paperworks, negotiations etc. I was struggling to even breathe in the office .Been travelling here and there but I couldnt find and feel what I wanted to.

July …my life has changed a lot and now I spend most of time with my students. Trying to fix and clear their mind while I am suffering migraine and severe head damage:)

But at the end of the day, I am happy. For the past years I am looking for happiness and I finally found it in a rare place that I never think of. It is true that sometimes the thing that you’ve been looking for is just right infront of your eyes. And when you finally be able to see that, it is such a wonderful feeling.

Towards the end of last year, I’ve met wonderful people that I havent seen for ages. Its like going back to school again. But I’ve learnt that people do change and things aint going to be the same though.

This first month has been great to me. I managed to get what I’ve been dreaming of. Pursuing my LLM this year under a scholarship. Guess this is one of the best thing that ever happened in my life. Looking forward to September but there are so many things that I need to settle prior to that. I’ll be saying goodbye to M’sia for a year or two.

Well, will be blogging again later. Got to rush for the Business Law class. someone sent me this quote last nite. "In order for two halves to be whole, each half must be whole on its own". Hmm…. what’s got to do with me?

p/s: looking forward to see my long time buddies end of the month.